On my p's

I think i should just call this a period blog since i write on here most of the time whenever im on my period and feel all sad and moody and think about things more than usual.

In All Seriousness

Sometimes i think i should stop being happy, joking and laughing all the time around people. Whenever im serious about something most people cant tell especially by the way i say it. Not being serious for a while makes me feel like i dont know how to be serious and when i want to i say it in a jokeful matter which people dont realise.

16

I gave him food poisoning from the sandwhich i made for him. I felt so bad i even started crying in front of him even when a few days before i told myself i didnt want to be sad in front of him.

I had sex with him. I dont know what got to me. Maybe it was because of my period and i felt really horny or because i actually wanted to do it with him and really like him. I cant even say love yet either. Maybe a little bit but not fully. I dont know if i regret the decison i made. In a way i do, but again i dont????? I wish he stopped me and we talked about it with each other properly.

Loneliness

Why am I feeling like this again? I thought I would never feel like this again because it's a new school and I have my close friends but it's happening again. I'm always just there. There's no difference with or without me there. I only like going to one class since I have one of my close friends n another friend that I can talk to. But i still feel so lonely.